anguish

Have you dwelt in the house of the not
Yet born and have you paced its floor without
The benefit of footsteps...
could you sleep in that
Pitch perfect dark of not existing yet
-- from Amit Majmudar’s “Answers from the Whirlwind”, Image (#59)

There is no question that God is calling me up out of some old and decaying bits in my soul and into something deeper and truer and more like Christ. Some days I feel like it's killing me.

Come to think of it, it probably will.