Holy Week Lament: Shannon Coelho (Truly, I say to you, today you will be with me in Paradise.)

In this season that I do not have time to write, this is the idea God gave me:  Ponder and notice again the words I've already written once, keep praying the beads of memory to discover this sacramental life.  This Holy Week I'm sharing again the beautiful mourning stories six of my friends generously shared with us last year.  

An introduction to Holy Week Lament:

Jesus gave us a litany of last words as a Sufferer; we refer to them as the Seven Last Words of Christ.  The deathbed words of the Suffering Servant will serve as our framework for the stories of lament we share here this Holy Week.

I count it a high privilege to know -- at least in small part -- the mourning stories of the dear ones who will share here for seven days.  Their lives walk the path between celebration, yes, but also suffering -- illness, relational disillusionment, anxiety, joblessness, death of loved ones, death of dearly-held dreams.  Their stories have helped form me in my understanding of suffering and I believe they could also encourage you too.  

I chose today's story-in-a-poem from an entry my friend 

Shannon Coelho

 submitted to a previous year's Lentent devotional at Christ Church. She shares not only a story of deep relational suffering but also a fraying strand of hope.  The same suffering-bourne grace offered to the dying, believing thief is strong enough to rescue us all.

By a Thread

Thirty years this June.

Seventeen of those spent spiraling.

The winds of blame, betrayal and plain adolescence

So powerful,

They spun him wide from his family berth -

Alone into,

Adrift in,

A sea of lonely experiments

With loves, highs, false prophecies and lesser gods -

A time of closed doors, open windows, muttered curses, mysterious rituals.

An eyeless storm promises no passing.

Instead,

Twisting more tightly as each year passes,

More wreckage gathers.

A once wonder-full mind,

Now visited by voices

Speaking violence -

Mere threats turn to jagged wounds.

“I cut myself real bad.”

“Don’t tell Dad and Mom.”

There are

Days without bread,

Days without home.

Countless days when prayers, raised, fall -

Drip, drip,

Now a deluge in our open hands.

There have been

Claims of healing.

Oaths sworn

And then choked -

By empty apologies,

Admissions without repentance,

A savoring of sin’s practice,

A comfort in its arms

And a course set -

Far from you.

You, Christ,

Commanded the storm to still.

Can’t you set this right?

I fear late night calls.

Can’t you set this right?

I miss him every day.

Can’t you set this right?

My prayers are bound by doubt.

Still we hang.

All of us -

By a thread.

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Shannon Coelho -- born and raised

 in the Yukon Territory of Canada -- 

has worked in the tv/film industry in Canada and

 teaching English in schools in Hiroshima. 

Now she makes Austin her home with

 her husband Peter, daughter Lucy and son Emmett.  

When she has a few minutes between

 caring for her babies and getting 

to know her new community in Texas,

 she blogs at 

Without Caring Twopence.

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What mourning stories have formed your life

 and your faith in the mercy-giving Jesus?

Tell us about it in the comments below.

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